Hi Nathan,
Sorry I didn't get a chance to suck on or cannibalize your last post yesterday ...
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I'm sorry that I have no secrets for you.
Well that's a relief ... but a disappointment as well. I was sure I was missing something that you probably knew.
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I don't know why you deserve it, but I can make a guess...
I'm not sure what you are talking about here. What is the "it" that you see me as deserving but don't know the "why" of the deserving? Who gave "it" to me? Do you think I "did" something to deserve whatever "it" is? Why even guess why? Does it matter "why" I deserve "it" (whatever "it" is). Should I be trying to "get" more of "it"?
Of course if you feel better guessing about why I may deserve anything ... then who am I to even try to stop you from feeling better. I like ice cream cones ... and beware anyone or anything that gets in my way when I want one so you see ... I truly do understand

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Maybe because you are happy with very little?
Is this a "trick" question? Are you testing me to discover if I am worthy of more special secrets ... that you don't have? Even if I accept the "root assumptions" of this question (the first trick of the "hidden" assumption), then it can still be "interpreted" in two "main" ways of course (the second trick of pre-framed replies). One would be saying that regardless of how "little" I am "connected with" in terms of things, possessions, or people ... I am happy. The other implies that regardless of how much I am "connected with" in terms of things, possessions, or people...I have little happiness. The third trick is that the "real" answer is outside the brackets or framework of the question itself. I know you knew all this and I hope I passed this test. What is my reward. What do I "deserve" now.
OK ... so now that I've "discovered" your tricks ... here's my "answer". I hope I get it right.
Both of these assume that my happiness is connected to an "amount" of something or other or being "with" something or other which is a "hidden root assumption" which is mostly incorrect in my case (I am still happy when I eat an ice cream cone which is one of the "things" that for me is a happiness connection which is still not broken). It assumes that happiness is either "causal" (leads to my deserving something) or "an effect" which is caused by an amount of something. Neither of these are mostly correct in my case.
Happiness IMO is a "multilayered" word/emotion which is a common label for many different things/emotions, and in and of itself is not so important to me ... even though my "normal" state is a happy one and it seems to "follow me around" quite a bit. This "state" is connected more to feeling LOVE/LIFE all around me than it is to being "with" anything ... big or little. It isn't dependent on getting what I "want" in either big or small amounts in other words since what I want is all around me no matter where I go or what I do or what I "perceive" or "experience" (ice creams cones being an exception as I mentioned).
So the "you are happy" part is mostly correct. The "with very little" is mostly correct and incorrect within in a completely "disconnected" kind of way and the idea of happiness as a "cause" for me is also mostly incorrect since for me it is an effect of LOVE/LIFE..
OK ... I want my prize now

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I don't know.
If you really don't know ... then why am I talking to you?
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It is not my personal choice or preference.
I have no idea what the "It" is that is not your personal preference. Could you clarify?
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I am only Messenger.
I thought you didn't know? But now you're a messenger? I'm starting to think you might know something after all. Who are you the messenger for? Are you the messenger of melting love? And I thought "mercury" was the messenger. Do you have wings on your feet too?
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Life is like a vision quest, and every time you open one lock by a mere breath the light falls like a slow waterfall in that direction.
This is great...another "secret" (that you didn't have) shared openly. It sure looks like you know something now. Are you sure about this ... since you just finished telling me "I don't know" and also that you didn't have any secrets. I really believed life was like a box of chocolates (and I used to believe MR Gump) but now you're telling me something else. This might confuse me.
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I'm interested in the newer models of locks, the ones to just look at.
There are some things I really like to look at too. Sometimes I stare at them for a long time. Sometimes I do my staring in secret. Sometimes I just dream about them in the worlds of melting love.
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You don't know what you are doing.
Now this seems like absolute truth to me. As true as anything can be. The proof of this is that I'm taking time writing nonsense in reply to nonsense ... just to pass the time between this present moment and my personal transformation. I know how to suck though ... and I make a pretty good cannibal ... or at least that's what I think you told me. Are you planning to send me one of those wafers I asked for by the way? I suspect you have a few of them hanging around inside you ... and its OK if you've nibbled on them a bit first.
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That is what you must know. It's not that easy. But you are learning indeed.
Thank you ... and I hope if I don't learn what I "must" know that I don't go to Hell. I just "knew" you knew the secrets about what I didn't know and that I must know. I know that saviors are no good and all that stuff but I'm sure glad you're ignoring all those "bad things" and pretending to be mine since I wouldn't have a chance without you. It's tough you know ... not knowing what I'm doing and all ... being told there's something I must know that I clearly don't. And by the way ... what is the "that" that I must know?
At least I'm learning ... but I want to know am I learning well enough? Do you think I'm learning the right things? Am I learning fast enough? What else do I need to know?
Keep it simple though OK? ... Remember I'm just a baby learning how to move my fingers ... but if you feed it to me like pablum ... I'll suck it right in

Love
Phoenix